Daniel, Peter, And Job

"Daniel broke the king's decree, Peter stepped from the ship to the sea, there was hope for Job like a cut down tree, I hope that there's such hope for me." I hope that there is such hope for me. Daniel broke the king's decree and was thrown to the lions and didn't get devoured. Peter walked on water and when the doubt came Jesus himself helped him up. Job endured his life being torn apart and it was all allowed by God and Job still praised God. Could I do the same, praise God after tons of shit happens to me. I hope and pray that if and when the trials come I can face them as Job and Daniel and Peter but sometimes I doubt and don't feel helped up. When I have stood up for God I get pushed back down. When the trials come I don't praise Him still. It so hard, sometimes I feel like I don't have a relationship with God but a struggle with Him. But it sounds so bad to say a 'struggle' it sounds negative and it isn't necessarily. Maybe I mean just that I struggle with the faith. I have doubts, fears, and I lack wisdom so it is my struggle with God. And besides saying relationship with God is so cliche. I think sometimes I just have to have the faith of a child in the darkest times. In the times among the lions, and walking on the stormy sea, and when shit happens to me maybe I should just have the faith of a child and just believe that He's going to be there for me. A child doesn't doubt that in the bad times the parent will be there, they know. Maybe faith like a child is required. Even in darkness the light still shines.